Sharon Arnaut-Clementi

Hi Dollygirl,

 I was reading your page and I realized how I was still in the stage where I hated Sundays. That is no longer true. I have found an amazing church and Cara goes with me. Every Sunday Cara and I sit next to eachother ( but you already knew that because I feel you there with us) I miss you imImensely everyday but through God I find the strength to go on for me and my kids. Ive been sober a little over 21 months. How about that? I know that you are proud of me. I love you Mommy, goodnight.

Mommy,

 I try so hard day in and day out to be strong in your absence. Sundays are still the worst. I miss getting in your bed with you and watching Lifetime movies and snuggling with the kids. Its getting to be that time of year. Its getting colder. I cant believe that it is going to be 2 years already that you have been gone. Everything is sooo different. Everything is different. I pray to God to draw me close to Him to help me through this pain. I love you Mommy and miss you! Love, Dollygirl

Gramma,

   To this day I still can not believe you are gone. Every day I think about you and I wish you were still here. I swear everytime I get on this website, before I even type in Clementi I already have tears running down my face. When you died all people told me was you are so strong or they told my mom "Christie she's a very strong little girl." and I didn't get it at first because all I would do is cry,but now I know what people mean, and that's even though I've lost my bestfriend I still try to be happy all the time and be there for Belle, Jake, Cody, and the little ones don't really understnd, but I was there for them on you anniversery of your death. and i will always be... and not just on your death I will always be there for them. Chase and Brady still remember you and I thank god for that. The boys and I were looking at pictures together the other day and I found one of you and Grandma Donna and I asked them both who you were and they both said "Gramma" and I was so happy that they still remembered you and I told my mom to come here and I pointed to you and the boys said "Gramma" and my moms face lite up. You would be so proud of Chase and Brady, and Jake and Belle and Cody. We are all growing up so fast and all of our mothers hating it. I have so much more to say,but I guess we will just have to wait untill heaven because I have to much to say to you. ~I LOVE YOU GRAMMA~

                                  

Gramma,

   I need you. I miss you. I wish you were here on earth with the rest of us, but your not we're just here on earth wanting you down here with us and waiting wondering what if. What if we could've told you goodbye or any of the other of millions and millions of things we wanted to tell you. Like we are sorry for every little thing we got mad at you for. Most of us if not all of us just try to take it day by day trying to get through them all without thinking of you and trying not to break down and cry, but most of us can't weither were crying by ourseves or someone else it seems like we're always crying. Sometimes I think weither or not we were ready for you to leave us alone, most of us were'nt, but we are still not used to you not being here. Well i better go have to get up early for school I love you!!!

Sis--I just came back from visiting you. You have beauitful flowers there and wreaths made by your grandkids.Its been 1 year today and its not any easier to accept that you are gone and not coming back.It still hurts for all of us. I know you are up in heaven watching over all of us. And I know that you went first to make it easier for the rest of us to follow. We know you'll be waiting with open arms when our time comes.Sis-I know you aren't in pain anymore and you're happy. And I know that you know we all love you and we'll never forget you.

March 12 2009

I know that you read this Mommy, I dont know who else does and I dont care. I want to keep in touch with you, just ike our journals. I cant sleep (go figure) the rest of the house is asleep, tucked into their clean beds, everyone fed just the way it has always been at the end of our day, except Im alone writing you a letter because your gone. I know now where you were preparing me but Mom, I wasnt ready. My kids werent ready. Bella and Jake were not ready!!! Im trying to keep it together and pray that God keeps them together. Sometimes Bella cant concentrate Jake looks like hes lost his best friend. "Gramma sis". "Mommy" Goodnight we love you.

your loss is heavens gain
and i could never begin to feel your pain
and i know i cant make it any better
its kinda like one man tryin to change the weather
but it whould be a sin not to try
and through the sky her soul will fly
leaving behind memories and all that she instilled
but never the less it will hurt you still
i dont know the reason that it was her he chose
only heaven knows i suppose
but i hope it wasnt out of greed and jelousy
that down here your family had someone so precious to see
and the only other thing that i can say
is that she will hear whenever you pray
and by the way
god just recruted one hell of an angel,

love you and miss you mom!

 

In Loveing Memory Of

Sharon L. Clementi

12/30/48-10/12/08

Sis,  I can't begin to tell you how much you are missed.  I know that this was your favorite holiday.   Greg and the girls really miss you.  I know how hard it is to lose someone so close and that you love so much.  I know that you are in a better place, as I always said that Michele was too.  If you see her, please give her a hug and kiss from me and tell her that her mom loves her and misses her so much.  You did a good job with your family, because they seem to be doing pretty good now.  All three of the girls are there for their dad.  And of course your grandchildren that you loved so much.  I know that you will  be with us in spirit on Christmas Eve.  I know that you are no longer in pain.  We will all see you, dad and Michele again.  I just wanted to let you know that I loved you.  I made you a little Christmas tree.  The kids said that you really liked your tree so you will have a tree. I hope that you like this one.  Love, Sandy

Hi Mommy,

 Its Dollygirl. Im sitting in the living room, Daddy went to the Dr.s and the kids are at school. The Christmas tree is up and all the decorations are out throughout your house. You would like it, I know this time of year is your favorite. I dont spend as much time at home since you've been gone. I love this house, but sometimes its too much. I need to step away. I see you in every inch of the house doing things. Your in the basement with me doing laundry and banging on the faucets so the water doesnt leak. Your in the bathroom, in the mirror, in the hallway, the breezeway, EVERYWHERE. Im trying to make the right decisions regarding "our" family as well as "my own" family. Please just let me know that your with me and the kids. The kids are so strong. Bella is amazing but you already knew that. Jake is  slowly understanding that Grandma went to Heaven with Daddy, thats what works for now until time passes. I dont know Mom, this is so crazy for me. I'm going to be OK though, you'll be proud of your Dollygirl. I LOVE YOU THE BEST IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!!

The time had finaly come for God to call my wife, confidant, and best friend back home.  Even though you are in a better place I feel guilty for being selfish and wanting you here.  I am lost without you all through our lives together you supported me, answered all my questions even the ones I never asked.  I have regrets, time not spent with you, things I should have said to you, and the times I made you angry.  I miss you so much, I wish I had one day, one hour, one minute to say the things that should have been said while you were with me, but that isn't possible now. I know you knew you were loved unconditionaly just as I know you loved all of us unconditionaly  The day that you left a part of me left with you. I will never be the same. I  always wished I would go before you and you would see that our children and granchildren would be cared for. I will do  everything in my power to see that they are cared for.  I can't say that I remember the last words you said to me, maybe one day they will come to me.  As for now i will just keep thinking of the days we had together.  One day we will be together again.  Rest in Peace

To all who knew and loved my mother, I thank you for being part of her life. I pray that as you heal from the pain of her absence you grow in the blessings of her eternal peace. She is no longer  suffering, she is no longer tired, she is once again youthful and free and is restored to her natural beauty. My mother and I talked daily about our beliefs, our spirituality, and Our Father in Heaven, and I firmly believe that when she entered into her Eternal Home, the skies above me cleared and the vast sunlight was reflected off of her elegant radiance. I know that she is in a better place and she remains the driving force in my life. There will never be anyone like my mommy, my babies other mother, and my best friend. May we all find comfort through her memories and her kind words. I LOVE YOU MOMMY,  BEST IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!!!

Mom,

i want you to know that there is'nt a day that goes by that i dont think of you,i miss you so much, i no your in a way better place right now ,probably haveing the time of your life.i only hope that eveyday of my life you continue to guide me and cody threw lifes journey...just know that daddy will be taken care as i took care of you....i love you mom,May You Rest in peace....

Mom,

  I will miss you forever, there is an empty place in my heart now. I know you are guiding my children(Caitlynn, Chase, and Brady) and me as you always did. I hope I make you proud raising my children as I hope to. Thank you for everything you taught me and I hope to be just as a wonderful person as you are. I know you are no longer with me in person , but I know you are always with me. Thank you for raising me the way you did I know I am the person I am today because of you. Mom , I love you and will see you again when you are wiating to greet me.

To all of my family,

Words can't describe how sorry I feel that Aunt Sissy has left our lives so suddenly. The only consolation I can offer is that I know she's in a better place smiling down on us.  She was a wonderful nurse and kind hearted woman.  She was always so proud of her children and grandchildren, and Ill never forget that.  Girls, if you ever need someone to talk to, I'll be here!! I'm just a playdate away!! :)  We will definately stay close and get the kids together, so that Aunt Sissy can feel the love all the way up there! I love you all!

Greg and kids,I know how hard it is to not have her there with you. I miss her too.I know I can never take her place but I'm here if you girls need to have a mother -daughter talk or if the kids need a hung from grandma. I've had plenty of practice at being a mother and grandmother.Greg-if there is anything we can do for you -you know we're here.You are still a part of our family and we'll take care of you the way she would want us to.She will be forever in our hearts. SIS-We love you!!